Who is whose cross?

Is hubby my cross to bear or I am hubby's cross to bear?

I've heard the same thing being said in RCIA... marriage is a cross for both parties to bear. But does marriage have to be in such 'agony'? Granted that most times, I claim that it's hubby whose making me irriated and pissed off. But as I sit down now to reflect, am I being a cross to hubby too? Just that his way of showing is different from me?

Hubby after making an entry, asked me to read and tell him what I think and feel.

I did.

I felt stumped at what he wrote. Cause, I suddenly felt that our life together seems to be in 'misery' and 'agony' rather than the 'enjoying married life'. I do feel a little guilt at treating hubby the way I did.

Hubby was quite sweet, having seen my reaction and hearing me out, he added, "must be because, he had been eating too much recently, hence his weight is more than I can bear."

This really brought a smile to my lips. Trust him to say the funniest and heart warming things at this moment.

But still, I still do feel slightly bad, for making him feel lousy. Making him feel that he is the cause of all my unhappiness (though he's the indirect cause), that he got to behave himself like a little boy who is told "unless you behave, I don't love you".

I do! I do love you, Darling. I guess, I'm too much of a FCB to back down during the situation. Please forgive me too. =(